why i am going through different moods these days?

its really a nice experience to write after so long. i don't know what was keeping me away from publishing my entry here. anyways i am happy today. this feeling is ultimate. i am really happy. it is now that i am able to feel that i "exist". some days before it was "me" who thought about the tough part of life...how must i live with it?...but now m happy....sigh!
i am having exams from 23 of this month and had started studying also. studying is giving me an unusual strength which i am liking and feeling strong from within. i know there is very little time left. i am little upset about the way i remember god these days. surely i would write about it too... very soon!