could the talks between friends be so called "kahani"????

30 september 2008, tuesday

it was very very bad to hear from a friend today that "post your kahanis on mails or offliners".....my god!...i cant express here in writing about hw much i felt dejected at this point....

he is one of my very good friend. i use to discuss every thng with him...my sorrows as well as my happiness. same was the case two days before. i was very happy because i stood first in the seminar. so this was what i was sharing with him. suddenly i got disconnected from the net and was unable to complete the conversation. but i found it to my great dismay

when he called those feelings of happiness to be "kahani"...

is this true that watever we share each other are mere stories but nothng else?

well I DON'T ACCEPT THIS NONSENSE AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its my birthday today!!!!!!

17 september 2008, wednesday
my birthday always starts with a good note as there is always vishkarma pooja on this day!
moreover there was my dadaji's sharad today. so in all every religious proceedings surrounded me round the clock.
i celebrated the day perfectly but somethings are still troubling me
those ppl who are derest to me n use to call me at midnight every yaer unka phone abi tak nai aaaya.....sigh!!!!
anyways m addicted to all this stuff now but fir b pta nai kyun feel hota hai???...i wonder

my meeting with sardarji uncle!!!!!

13 september 2008, saturday

while returning to my home i boarded a low floor DTC bus . it was the bus stand of DHAULA KUAN and suddenly many of the passengers were in a rush to deboard the bus whereas others were looking for the seat. and i was one amongst those who were looking for the seat. suddenly two people left their seats and one was awarded to me (on the outer side) and other to srdarji uncle(on the inner side). before describing everythng let me describe uncle ji. he is 85+ in age and very much proud of being experienced. his face is covered with wrinkles all around and is angry on the issues on which every senior citizen is supposed to be. he is talking to me without my initiation mind you. what happened today was that i was in salwar-kameez and as i was on the outer side so whoever came i needed to balance the duppttta. now one young man came , probably he was a student, and pushed himself back hurting me badly with his heavy loaded bag. i reacted and made different sort of faces.
uncleji was observing everything and likewise commented "....yeh aajkal k bache b na.......10 kilo ka khud hai aur basta 20 kilo...dikha rha hai kitna padhta hai....aur iske bawjood b fail hota hoga.....nalayak!!!!....ghar ja k kahega main itna thak k aaya hun..mujhe kahan do...maa baap ko ullu bnayega....aur fir kahega ...ye kya bnaya hai....mujhe pasand nai ..le jao...."!!!!
fir kya tha...i laughed and passed a smile....
he was lookinh at me and commented on several things he saw diring the whole journey of ours. i was doing nothng but smiling and responding to his question quietly. now my stand came. but he was still commenting on the M.C.D DEPARTMENT. somehow when he completed i said "acha uncle ji mera stand aa gya main chalti hun ".......
and he put his hand on my back blessing me and saying "acha beta..fir milenge..."

now what could anyone make out of all this???
offcourse i felt enlightened and thought that god is everywhere................

it was the worst day of my life today!

11 september 2008, thursday.

it is very difficult for me to write here what happened with me today. just a hint that it was seriously very very disaapointing today....what???....i really dnt know. i a looking for any of my friend to discuss the issue...........
i trust you my god!

two different phases of life i saw at single moment

10 september 2008,wednesday

before the class was about to start today, i interacted with my classmate for the very first time. she introduced herself to me along-with giving the details of her boyfriend. they are very happy. even the boy had been accepted by the girl's family. they have the future plans too. and the surprising fact is that they know each other from 3 months or so. she is pretty sure that he would only be his better-half. this all was really very nice to hear for me. but, on the contrary, another classmate of mine entered the room and we asked her why was she late?...she expalined on her part that her dad is hospitalised and is on prayers these days. he is a patient of kidney failure and doctors could do nothing. there was an absolute abominable lul all around in the class. i just pray that her dad get well and return back to his family. may god give strength to her family.

the disparity between these two feelings are seriously unacceptable. i pondered over the thing that why god gave me such situation to face today??>.....at one moment there is new life,emotions and feelings of love whereas on other hand there is the ultimate reality of life....i mean DEATH!

i am very upset today!

7 september 2008,sunday

i wrote a poem some days back. i had kept it in a book. but i am unable to find it. i thought i would publish it on my blog but it is because of my mistake only that i am unable to do anything. how could anyone be so much irresponsible?......
i wonder..........
sigh..........